Kathy McCarthy

NOT GOOD ENOUGH

Why don’t you love me?
What did I do?
How did I change,
From when I was new?

Questions I asked
Of God high above.

Why won’t you listen
To me as I cry?
All alone with a stuffed white rabbit
By my side
Under the cover

Hidden, I cried.
Why won’t you read a story to me?
Why won’t you hug me?
And hold me tight

Where were you, mother
When I fell in fright?

Scarred in the womb of the night
Always at work
Always away
Busy with somebody else
Every day.

Am I too small?
Should I grow tall?
When we’re alone
Then will you love me?