Mark I. Kirkmeyer

I SCARED MY FAMILY THIS WEEK

I scared my family this week
Because I lost control
I lashed out with my voice
I held back hands and weapons
I scared my family this week

They want to be supportive
But they are afraid
I was better off on the street
They were safe from me
I scared my family this week

The police were called
I didn’t break any laws
One officer grabbed me
“I’m not arresting you”
I scared my family this week

“Let me go or arrest me”
“Otherwise it’s assault”
The cop let go but called friends
Three hours they watched me
I scared my family this week

They left for the weekend
I wanted to leave
They abandon the animals
I have to stay
I scared my family this week

They would be better off
If I were dead
I’m more of a problem
Than an help
I scared my family this week

I was trying to improve
Myself to be worthy
Of a life in polite
Ordinary Society
I scared my family this week

I gave my partner the company
I abandon my SUV
I don’t need anything
I’m a failure
I scared my family this week

Webmaster’s Note: I’ve included Mark’s poem on his main index because his week is not unique.

This is the pain and reality that many veterans and their families experience on occasions that may not be regular or even frequent, but are all the more destructive because of that unexpectedness; destructive to all concerned – the Veteran, their family, their friends, their support network and the public servants who are asked to assist.

This story is not fiction – these incidents are all too real.

Anthony W. Pahl
IWVPA Webmaster
March 20, 2004