Danielle N. Calhoun

ODE TO A DEADBEAT DAD

I shouldn’t have to stoop to your level;
my life was perfect until you reared your ugly head

I scream for salvation only I hear nothing
every time you whine you get your way

I do my best to work against the devil
Raising a child and wondering why

Why did it have to be this way?

I continue to try and make a living
while you hide and stay far away

You have all the attention while I sit along the lines.
You get the answers while I still have the questions

One being why you continue to hide

I never thought that I would have to be
so hypocritical and so very mean
but life has showed me this

I was the civil one until you came along;
You make me wish I never did bare you a son
My world was fine until you took charge

Why the hell do you have to make life so hard?

I pray for forgiveness every time
I feel I do or say something wrong

But now it’s time I open up!
I hope you’re listening to my words!

I pray for my son’s future hoping that you
won’t try to make him listen to your garbage

I hope that they find you and you get what’s coming your way

If only you were different and didn’t have your doubts
I would have been married and we would have had a life

But things just did not work that way
you took what trust I had

You took me to your family and although I feel it’s sad
they stuck up for you no matter what while I had to struggle to this day

Sometimes I feel like you’re the one who really ruined my life
but when looking back in hindsight I see that this is not true

For as it is said it takes two to tango
when I see your face I want to tell you

Screw you and all your pride
which you so shamefully show
making us feel like outcasts

Is this your idea of a perfect world?

For every beginning there is an end
so here’s to you and all your kind
may God have mercy on you
when it becomes your time