Robin Amy Bass
I’M WAITING: PART 1
I’ve waited so long for things to appear
I’ve waited so long for you to be here
I’ve counted the days – I’ve counted my sheep
I’ve buried desire – I’ve hidden it deep
Deep in my heart – and I try to act cool
Steeped in alarm – ‘cause I feel like a fool
You tell me briefly – that it will work out
You tell me things – but you’re never about
I’ve waited for you – I’ve been waiting for years
While I’m longing to sleep, all my doubts reappear
(and I laugh at myself as I’m driven to tears
I have banged down your door when resolve disappears)
And I think to myself I’ve been waiting too long
And you still aren’t here – so I’m hiding this song…
Deep in my soul – and I bury the fear
Waiting is hell – am I making it clear?
‘Cause you’re making it clear – that’s its different for you
And I think to myself – what will I do?
If I wait for a dream – that is only my own?
Will I stay here forever – by myself all alone?
With a promise of something that never comes true
‘Cause I can’t recognize anybody but you
In my dreams you’re the this guy who is waiting for me
In my dreams I show up – and I say now I’m free
And you stand in the door way – and say,” I’ll be damned”
And we smile as I say, “some things go as they’re planned”
I’ve made it to you – but you say, “Not so fast”
And I say to myself it is just like the past
And it’s only a dream – it is not really true
In the cold light of dawn – I’m still waiting for you
And that obstacle course – I’ve removed it you see
I said that I would – I’m so obviously free
I am counting the days – and I’m counting my sheep
I am trying to write this without starting to weep
And my soul is on fire – my heart’s on my sleeve
I’m not prepared to surrender – not ready to grieve
I’m waiting and watching grey skies turn to blue;
I’m waiting and watching – still waiting for you!
©Copyright September 23, 2004 by Robin Amy Bass