Robin Amy Bass

I WONDER

If we could wear each other’s shoes
For just a little while
I wonder if I would slow down
I wonder if I’d smile
When you put on my favorite pumps,
The 3-inch patent heels,
I’m sure I’d think, but never say,
“Now you know how it feels.”

If we could play the changing game
What you dub “Switcheroo”
I wonder if you’d interrupt
The way I always do

I wonder if I asked you to
If you would come to stay
And when the evening stars came out
You would not drive away
And leave me in my solitude
‘Cause that’s how I work best
I wonder if you know I know
You’re different from the rest

I wonder if I wanted to
You’d let me hurt myself
I wonder if you’d help me look
And find my mental health
I wonder if you made me cry
You’d think it justified
I wonder if I’d have to say
I know you know I lied

I wonder if you’d hurt me some
If it would do me good
I wonder if you’d go too far
Before you knew, you should
Just try to be there at those times
I needed you the most
I wonder if you’d feel me there
If I became a ghost.

I know that if I said to you
I think I want to die
I think you’d do your level best
And tell me I should try
To do the thing that works for me
To make me want to live
And you would give me everything
With nothing left to give

I know that if you wore my shoes
You’d find the fit was tight
But you would wear them anyway
Until they fit just right
And when at last you broke them in
At times, they’d still feel snug
But favorite shoes are just that way
Sometimes they have to hug

And when you walked that sexy strut
The pain you felt was real
The pleasure that you got from them
Would make it worth the deal

I wonder if I wore your boots
If I would trip and fall
And if I hurt myself real bad
I’d still wait for your call
Or if I called you up to find
That you were out somewhere
I’d take it as a fearful sign
That you don’t really care

I wonder at the tangled web
I sometimes tend to weave
But one thing you should know for sure
Please know I’ll never leave